the death of hellbeard
well i gotta be quick cuz i gotta run over to john's to record. we're redoing an old song. i've been writing nonstop. things have been going faster once i wrote john a song for his birthday. the song was longer than fett's vette. really crazy, i turned him into an intergalactic saboteur. then i wrote another song on tuesday after a great class on monday. things have been going faster since i went to my laptop instead of long hand in an imitation leather bound book i got for christmas. and it's easy to send the files to john who prints them out for the actual record. and when it comes time to do the lyrics page it's already done. so let's hope the spring keep flowin. i'm having more fun with it, reminding myself why i love these songs, the song making process. you really nurture them, drafts upon drafts, non stop tinkering.

as for what i've been doing besides music stuff i'm really into seltzer. ever since i got sprayed with it at the ucbt in cracked out's show it's like i'm hypnotized for the stuff. i order it in restuarants fill my fridge with bottles of pelligrino and perrier. i'm into sudoku, big time. i want to buy a book full of them rather than my laptop widget and the daily news. i've found a new great way to kill time, and work a part of my brain that doesn't flex much. i've also been watching the news a lot. i'm really into pbs. the news hour with jim lehrererer. i like the dry frankness of news like that. they grilled cheney who just answered back like a happy robot that never did anything wrong ever. i used to know these doctors that didn't watch tv at all. but they watched that show on a small television in their kitchen while they cooked gourmet grub. i thought they were a real cut above the rest. i watch seinfeld whenever it's on, even if i've just watched the episode on dvd. i'm a little too into american idol. i haven't watched since the kelly clarkson season in atlanta. it's nice to watch stupid television, but i think honestly what it is, is that i need to see how badly these kids want it. how much they'd kill for the chances i've been given. puts it into perspective how lucky i am to have nothing to do all day except rhyme overweight with rollerskates.

i saw lost finally last night. missed the last two episodes thanks to a glitch at itunes (applllllle!) so i'm kinda lost, ha, on things. charlie is all of a sudden gollum. people are talking about an army like they're gungans. i read the recaps and some other people's blogs so i know what's happened. locke obviously wants the baby. and charlie was innocent right, because it was just a dream. he'd never hurt that baby.

i stopped wow as i stopped going to parties, skipped a class. i think i got the jist. there's work to do. and i wasn't doing anything but dying over and over. it definitely was a fun place to visit.

who knows maybe hellbeard will return. the villagers can only hope.