i actually did leave the monastery a few times, to look at furniture i'll never buy, to go sit in the dark and watch my friends swim around on stage for laughs, for energy. my day to day became less and less about comics and movies. as the good movies were few and far between. and comics, well i should hold back i think... but i feel literally addicted. like i'm 10 and it's dick tracy. and it's fourties. fifties?
daily adventures are now all about what am i gonna eat, where am i gonna go to eat. i've tried a bunch of different things. gray's papaya in nyc is basically the only food i can trust (and cheap.) that and terriyaki chicken at a sushi place (expensive.) i just went into the store a few hours ago and i felt like i was going camping. i'll need this and this, because the game would require me to not really... you know... move. i was seriously buying soda and candy bars like the apocalypse was coming. my laptop's a little glitchy, so john and i have discussed an upgrade. i mean this dvd isn't gonna make itself.
i've been watching a lot of the footage from the shows. it's amazing how many different places we'd been. i wish i woulda watched footage sooner, i would've tightened things up in so many ways. if i get to tour again i hope to really improve upon what i've done thus far. i had a writing teacher that hated archaic language like that. upon. thus. i don't quite know what kinda movie it's gonna be. i'm glad i have all the footage, i regret ever being in a bad mood on tour because it just blows my mind, that that many people would come out and see my show.
i've kinda hit a little bit of brick wall creatively. and it's not just the game. i really want the weather to make up it's mind (and choose spring) as i feel a little bit locked in. i know it all come out when it's supposed to, but i look at each song like, are you worth working on? i'm jumping back and forth between five different songs, nothing's really getting me excited. i haven't heard beats yet though so, who knows.
i charge through the snow covered valleys, transparent and blue. i'm dead, i'm a ghost, killed by another wendigo for trespassing. and i'm trying to get back to my body. but the sound of pines, and the absence of life, the empty valley. it's got me walking to my destination when at first i ran.
ps. oh and i forgot why i made this post. to say that i'm gonna lose this contest, as the vote is almost 50/50. i'd hate to keep asking everyone to vote a million times, but you know... please, vote, a million times!!! we gotta at least win round one. it's a little suspicious as demander doesn't have a message board and i talked to them about it a while back, and they didn't seem to care really. so, being the paranoid little hermit i suspect foulplay and no good trickery. don't let the bad guys win! spin.com/bandoftheyear